where is my curiosity??

Yesterday, I watched this Jap drama abt a 6 year old boy who is curious about everything around him and won't accept anything he was told unless he feels it's reasoned enough to be accepted. He asks the quintessential question that we adults (or in my case, adult-to-be =P) forget; "Why?"

"Why is 1+1 = 2?"

"Why is there rich people and poor people in this world if everyone is equal?"

He asks 'why' to everything that's taught. Not out of spite or merely being annoying, it's just that he is purely curious.......

Watching 10 episodes of Edison No Haha (the name of the Jap series) has suddenly made me think; "How come I don't ask 'why' anymore?" I mean, truth be told, I can't even remember when was the last time I wanted to learn something just because I want to know. I've gotten complecent. I've gotten lazy. My brain has gotten lazy. One very recent example: I couldn't even bother to understand the concept behind estimating the mean electrical axis of the heart from an ECG strip.. I knew there was a simpler way of just memorising how an ECG looks like if it's right sided or left sided. So why should I bother understanding why, right?

So that makes me wonder.... where is my curiosity? I remember being a child who couldn't stop asking questions until my dad gets tired of answering them and says: "Just because..." And I used to never accept that. But now, I just take in everything that's thrown at me. I when it's not needed to pass an exam, I don't bother to know it, even if it was related.

Have I grown up to be a conformist? To be shallow? To worry about hot actors... clothes and shoes on sale... the next good movie to see... my weight or my looks... or how to budget my spending so that I can go on holidays in foreign countries.. Is that who I am now? Is it wrong to be so? If it's not, then why do I feel like I'm ashamed of who I've become?

But then again.. the more important question I should ask is: What do I do now that I've started thinking about this? Do I try to change? Can I change? or will I end up letting my brain rot within its cavity just because I'm to busy being concerned with how much easy life would be if I could laze around everyday?