The hardest part is..

Do you want to know what the hardest part about being abroad/away is? Well... at the moment - it's FOOD CRAVINGS!! and being stuck in tiny misty grey Aberystwyth, I get that A LOT! As people on a constant diet can confirm, dealing with cravings takes a whole lot of determination and control.. But then again, being geographically challenged with no car of my own, it may be slightly easier to not have to give in to such wanting.. XD

Okay, seriously now.. what IS the hardest part I find about being away?

It's the sense of missing out on life

You always feel that you're missing in family pictures, friend's weddings, birthdays, vacations.. you name it. Sometimes it feels like other people go through milestones of their lives and you're an outsider, knowing about such things through Facebook/Twitter. And the worst part is, not only are you physically not included, not able to share the moment, you may also eventually lose touch with the person.. and when you come back home once a year you find huge gaps in your conversations and things become awkward for some reason. Like you no longer have things in common anymore. and then you just drop out of each others' lives because it's no longer comfortable to be around each other...

Sad isn't it? You feel that people move on. People replace you. Like all you are is just some furniture in their lives that they can just 'replace'. Oh well, I chose to be here. And I don't regret it at all. But it's still sad..

Homeward bound~~

Yes, people - it's THAT time of year again!! Summer holidays are FINALLY coming and after tomorrow (hauntingly gruesome Final Simulation assessment) I will be counting the hours till I'm back on Malaysian soil!!

Heck yeah! It's been such an incredibly LONG year - 11 freaking months with only 2weeks break for Christmas and 10 days post-exam throughout the entire time... a few mental breakdowns and running aways... I am SO glad for this break. I am tired. Drained. I'm hoping this 2months at home will rest my mind and inspire me into medicine (and life in general) again...

27th July 2010 - Here I come~

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girl crush alert!!!

Well, hello fellow bloggers (or whoever that's free enough to read my lame blog =P)

So yeah, too many posts on hot guys... I haven't had one of these in a while now: a girl crush! yeah, all-girl school days playing back in my mind right now~ hahahaha and here she is -

This, ladies and gentlemen, is Jessica Stroup a.k.a Erin Silver from 90210.. And if I was a boy, I'd totally crush on her.. ^^

I'm perfectly straight, don't worry... It's just that, to me beauty is to be appreciated, right? I can definitely say a girl's hot when they are. I've got no problems with that.

ps: I passed my exams!!! 5th year, here I come~~ whoop whoooooppppppp!!!!

Food diary: Jamie's Italian

We went to have dinner at Jamie's Italian today, in St. David's. And yes, you assumed right, it is one of the many franchises using Jamie Oliver's name and recipes. And yes, it was AMAZING, to say the least... I am now £20 poorer but am very very happy with the 3-course meal I had, which were:

Appetizer:
BRUSCHETTA
Chargrilled ciabatta rubbed with garlic, drizzled with olive oil and topped with one of the following... Tomatoes in season, basil and creamy ricotta
- Okay, this was by far my favourite dish of the night. It was so incredible. I could really taste the olive oil and the basil and even the tomatoes didn't taste vile. I would stand in line for a table (which goes on for quite a bit as no reservations are required) another day, just for this appetizer, and I am SO not kidding.

Main Course:
PRAWN LINGUINE
Pan fried garlicy prawns with tomatoes, chilli, rocket and fennel
- This was tasty as well. I've never had rocket in my pasta before, so this was new to my taste buds. But it worked pretty well to me. I might go for the smaller (non-main course) portion the next time I'm here if I was planning on having a 3-course meal though..

Dessert:
CREAMY PANACOTTA
Served with raisins in a syrup-y thing. hahaha This was really good too! It's not too sweet, perfect for my picky taste~ A perfect ending to a perfect meal.. ^^

I really wish I had pictures coz I'm so excited to share my experience there. But the lighting in the restaurant was too dimmed, the food ended up looking really bad in the photos, and so I decided it wouldn't do any sort of justice to the way they actually taste. If you are up to spending money for any reason and you're craving good Italian, I'd recommend Jamie's. =D

ps: Yes, exam's over too! I forgot to mention it here. Incase anyone was wondering. I have now started 5th year stuff (even before our results come out... yeah, talk about presumtuous ><)

Exams... o_0

As CBT often promotes; a positive thought preceeds positive behaviours and feelings. So yes, heeding those words, I shall practice positive thinking skills, as of now!

So the positive things about exams:

1) It's humbling. The more you study, the more you realise that you're not all that smart like you thought you may have been. Honest. Beats the arrogance out of you like nothing else...

2) Teaches you to appreciate time, especially nearer exams..

3) Makes you look forward to the time you will have AFTER exams, not having to study...

4) Reminds you of what degree it is that you're taking in the 1st place... LOL!!

5) Brings you closer to God. There's nothing like the fear of the unknown to bring you closer to Him... How shameful of a slave am I... but it really is the truth

6) Brings you closer to your comrades as you fight on a common path, towards similar aim.. the knowledge you share... and knowing that the hope of getting through this fight unscathed TOGETHER keeps us working~


okay... I've run out of positive things to say about exams... so yeah, dah puas melepaskan perasaan... mari belajar ye rakan-rakan? Doakan kejayaan saya juga!! ^^

Ranjau sepanjang jalan...

It has been a tough and annoying few weeks for me...

1st of all, my laptop started to slow and gave up on me... Sent me through a whole dilemma of having to buy a new one n risk being poor for some months in the future or put up with it dying and go look for a new one when it dies on me in the future.. After a 2 weeks of thinking and calculating my bank balance, the deciding factor was Currys Bank Holiday sale for me. I am now a proud (?) owner of a beautiful black 15.6" screen Dell Inspiron ^^

Then the weekend that my (old) laptop started to act up, the washing machine in our house broke, with my telekung solat in it! So I had to pray the hard way, with tudung, socks n coat (in my own room) everytime for a week.. coz the annoying thing wouldn't open the door unless it's done washing, not even when it's turned off (or in this case, broken) Had to leave the clothes in there until Monday coz electricians here don't work weekends.. Went off to Llanelli for placement for a week, came back the next weekend just to find out the problem STILL hadn't been fixed so my clothes had been stinking coz it's been soaked in soapy water for so long.... Rus and I even had to go over the boys' to wash our (smelly) clothes.. And guess what? The landlord's replaced the old machine for a 'new' one that now refuses to turn on. Like, seriously~~~

Dr. Sargeant was talking about the 'social factor of learning' and how one needs to be happy to be a productive learner.. Going through these past weeks, I completely agree with him. I mean, it may seem petty to most people but worrying about money is a HUGE deal for me. It takes up most, if not all, of my focus... I am just glad at least the laptop worry is settled, the money side of things is still up in the air, but I have chosen to not think about it so much... Worst comes to worst, I'll just eat bread and eggs for the rest of month! hahaha

ps: Oh and yeah, exam's NEXT week!! Erkk....

Bad choices...

I am a self-proclaimed fan of the american tv series, "How I Met Your Mother".... It's pretty well known and I've been following it since the days of season 3, now it's on the 5th season.. I won't tell you here what the show is about, coz if you don't already know, you can google it ^^

The episode this week was about Ted making a bad choice in buying a wrecked house because he felt like his life was stagnant. He claimed that being party to his mother's 2nd wedding when he himself hasn't even been married once, is a bit too much for him to accept.

He said, "Everyone's moved on but me. And I'm exactly where I was 5 years ago. I'm sick of it."

It really hit home for me. Not the 'wanting to get married part' but almost everything else.. how everybody seems to be moving on but I'm just in the same place I've been in 4 years ago. I am still here. Still pretty much the same except fatter. I am still struggling with a degree I don't really care much about. I am still trying to figure out what I'm gonna do for the rest of my life. While my other friends just seem to have found their place in the world, I am still ...... well, just 'still'.....

And at the end of the episode, I was so touched when Marshall started a BBQ in Ted's broken down house because he knew his best friend was gonna stick by his delusions anyway and as his friend, he will stand by Ted. I hope that one day when I make a stupid/delusional decision I will have someone who knows me that well will stand by me just as well..

Me taking this degree may have been a bad choice.. or it may not.. I still don't know. I guess, only some time in the future can I look back and know for sure what it is.. For now, I just gotta pull through and then think about what to do...

ps: don't get me wrong, I love being overseas. I love having to study in English n not have to feel inadequate at my own mother tongue. I love the shopping here. I love the cold.. I just don't think I like medicine..