I need..

I need a reason to fight again...

I need a reason to stay....

I need to find myself again...

I feel like the fire in me is burning out.. Just tired of fighting the wind that's determined to blow me out of existence

Can I just let myself fall? Should I just let go and head into a free fall? Maybe once I've fallen I can pick myself back up again instead of trying desperately to hold on to some form safety because I'm afraid...

But what if I never get back up if I let myself fall?

What if I run and decide never to come back?

I need to feel like I am myself again..

I need to love being myself again..